Easy
You chose her because she is that easy
Asking nothing from you she gives you everything
Over the phone or
Late night sessions at her apartment
She asks nothing of you
and needs only what you are willing to give
What man wouldn't?
Its easier to believe that you are fine the way you are
It is safer to stay stagnant because growing hurts
So instead of reaching your full potential
You choose the simple LIFE
Those who require nothing
Soon collapse in on themselves
and black holes are known to be greedy
As passive and not needy as they may seem
they will soon suck out life
and light
and child support
and gas money
and alimony
becuase that is their nature
And before you can say "easy"
it's not.
And before you can hide it
it's got.
And before you've counted
it costs.
And before you could have it
it's lost.
Its that easy.
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Greedy
Tastes. Sounds. Skin
I want it all. I don't want hers, I want yours. Only cause you won't give it to me. I've begged for years, I've asked nicely. Now, I'm taking it. Just cause I want it, cause you won't gimmie it.
What is it about needy eyes and big breasts that make you weak? I have neither. Look into my eyes and see that I need you. Place yourself in my breasts and see they are enough.
After so long, weak from whining, I'm taking. I want it all.
The way you taste. The sound of your heartbeat. The strength in your skin.
It was mine to begin with
I want it all. I don't want hers, I want yours. Only cause you won't give it to me. I've begged for years, I've asked nicely. Now, I'm taking it. Just cause I want it, cause you won't gimmie it.
What is it about needy eyes and big breasts that make you weak? I have neither. Look into my eyes and see that I need you. Place yourself in my breasts and see they are enough.
After so long, weak from whining, I'm taking. I want it all.
The way you taste. The sound of your heartbeat. The strength in your skin.
It was mine to begin with
Monday, March 21, 2011
Last Day of Winter (to my Future)
Cold, Still, Waiting.
Underneath an icy bleak stillness
Lies the prospect of new beginnings
Cold hearts pump fresh ideas
Dead on the outside
Worthless and unresponsive to the keenest eyes
Life on the verge of breaking
Still in itself
Waiting for the right elements
Sprinkle of love
Ray of acceptance
Surrounded by grace
Unknowing, even to itself
Love grows within
Underneath an icy bleak stillness
Lies the prospect of new beginnings
Cold hearts pump fresh ideas
Dead on the outside
Worthless and unresponsive to the keenest eyes
Life on the verge of breaking
Still in itself
Waiting for the right elements
Sprinkle of love
Ray of acceptance
Surrounded by grace
Unknowing, even to itself
Love grows within
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Place
I've gone to that place that eyes do not see
The darkness that only blues and Negro spirituals can soothe
The pit that tears won't fill
Second best to nothing
Losing to failure
The spot right after heartbreak
In front of suicide
I live in the apartment next door to depression
Around the corner from giving a fuck
Jazz sounds
Like noise
Beethoven
Deaf guy on piano
Layla
sounds hoarse
India
Needs guitar tuner
Alicia
Off key
And the Holy Spirit is just another lonely ghost on Halloween
I'm in that place
Without you
The darkness that only blues and Negro spirituals can soothe
The pit that tears won't fill
Second best to nothing
Losing to failure
The spot right after heartbreak
In front of suicide
I live in the apartment next door to depression
Around the corner from giving a fuck
Jazz sounds
Like noise
Beethoven
Deaf guy on piano
Layla
sounds hoarse
India
Needs guitar tuner
Alicia
Off key
And the Holy Spirit is just another lonely ghost on Halloween
I'm in that place
Without you
Friday, April 16, 2010
So Long
It has been so long since I put pen to paper. So long since I said what needed to be said. So long since I stopped pretending and now all I'm left with is the possibility of "So Long".
Life has the funniest way of turning on you, of taking off your shades and what seemed like a bright sunny day turns out to be dry barren desert. The things we do to keep ourselves from giving up. We deny, we refuse, we lie to ourselves, we blame the other person. What we don't do is deal. I'm not talking about pseudo-dealing. The kind where you think if you ignore the issue, don't talk about it, don't address it, forbid it from being a part of your life then it will go away. I'm talking about the dealing that hurts because it forces us to tell the truth about ourselves to OURSELVES. It makes us realize that as wonderful as we may be there is room for growth and that growing is NEVER a pleasant process. Real dealing is willing to continue working through a situation until it is worked through, sometimes acknowledging that an issue hasn't gone away because we wont let it, and realizing that some issues will NEVER be resolved the just have to be worked through.
I listened to a shaman the other day, Ravi (something or the other), who said, "It is struggling that breeds the struggle". I had to stop for a second, damn. He went on to say that the more we try to not be what we are the more we are what we are. He said the only way to work through a situation is to accept it. Accept that whatever you are feeling right now is how you should be feeling because you feel it. Accept that you are what you are right now and that you can not change what you are right now. The shaman went forward to enlighten me and said that the only way to change is THROUGH acceptance. You can not go around the truth, only through it. You can not deny who, what, and how you are. You can only accept it and make the effort to become what you want AND THEN be happy in the becoming. True happiness/bliss comes with the acceptance of what you are right now and accepting the absence of what you are not.
I am not _________ and I understand and accept that. I am going to work towards becoming ____________ and I am going to enjoy the process even if the goal can not/will not ever be reached.
This is personal. This can not be forced on another person. This can only be accepted by one's self.
So long.
Life has the funniest way of turning on you, of taking off your shades and what seemed like a bright sunny day turns out to be dry barren desert. The things we do to keep ourselves from giving up. We deny, we refuse, we lie to ourselves, we blame the other person. What we don't do is deal. I'm not talking about pseudo-dealing. The kind where you think if you ignore the issue, don't talk about it, don't address it, forbid it from being a part of your life then it will go away. I'm talking about the dealing that hurts because it forces us to tell the truth about ourselves to OURSELVES. It makes us realize that as wonderful as we may be there is room for growth and that growing is NEVER a pleasant process. Real dealing is willing to continue working through a situation until it is worked through, sometimes acknowledging that an issue hasn't gone away because we wont let it, and realizing that some issues will NEVER be resolved the just have to be worked through.
I listened to a shaman the other day, Ravi (something or the other), who said, "It is struggling that breeds the struggle". I had to stop for a second, damn. He went on to say that the more we try to not be what we are the more we are what we are. He said the only way to work through a situation is to accept it. Accept that whatever you are feeling right now is how you should be feeling because you feel it. Accept that you are what you are right now and that you can not change what you are right now. The shaman went forward to enlighten me and said that the only way to change is THROUGH acceptance. You can not go around the truth, only through it. You can not deny who, what, and how you are. You can only accept it and make the effort to become what you want AND THEN be happy in the becoming. True happiness/bliss comes with the acceptance of what you are right now and accepting the absence of what you are not.
I am not _________ and I understand and accept that. I am going to work towards becoming ____________ and I am going to enjoy the process even if the goal can not/will not ever be reached.
This is personal. This can not be forced on another person. This can only be accepted by one's self.
So long.
Friday, January 22, 2010
That Man
He works my nerves
He works hard
He drives me crazy
He drives my mom around
He’s so mean to me
He means the best
He hurts my feelings
He’ll hurt a nigga
He’s don’t budge at all
He don’t lie at all
He don’t complain at all
He don’t cheat at all
He don’t cry at all
He don’t whine at all
He don’t feel out loud
He don’t love out loud
He wont scream out loud
That man
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